fairuz in her regular thought but in a deep way

12:29 pm

sometimes, i dont know what im feeling. Its like im feeling numb. Am i weird? Its like i dont know how to express my feeling in a correct ways.. i guess and sometimes, they misunderstood it. And if i ever do it, I just dont know is it good or not. 

Sometimes i do have a lot of things in mind and want to tell everyone. But i do think it would bother them and i would end up keeping to myself. Am i that lonely?

Can someone tell me how it feels when you have someone to tell all of your things in your mind and everything without feeling insecure tho? Im afraid of being judge.

Its not like I dont try to talk to someone about my feelings and so on, I already tried it. But somehow, some people dont match my vibe and sometimes, they ignored it. So I end up, keeping to myself so that i wont be ashamed. 

There is a lot of things im afraid of. And one of those is, expressing my feeling.